Lately, out of the BLUE, Ashlee has been asking me alot of questions about when I'm going to die...she cries and say she doesn't want me to die...I have no idea where this is coming from, or WHY she is thinking this? Perhaps it's all the talk about my dad who is dying from 2 cancers?? She sees how sick he is and knows something is wrong. She is only 5 years old, so I know she is young and doesn't understand. Her great grandfather passed away last November and she didn't get upset. But all of a sudden she is asking me questions about when he is coming back from Heaven, etc. HAYLEE on the other hand, took it extremely hard...she sobbed for days, and still does periodically here and there (she keeps a framed pic of him and her by her bedside). So, I'm struggling with what to say or how to handle this gentle subject!
So, my good friend Susan, who works for the Wellness Community and deals alot with families going thru cancer, sent me a link for a book called Butterfly Kisses. It deals with adults trying to explain death or an illness to their young child. So...I decided to buy it and plan to read it to my kid's because I think anything that will help them down the road with understanding this very confusing aspect, is worth buying! (I think they should have a book like this for families with young kids going thru divorce! I have several friends who are struggling with that aspect of trying to explain it to their young kids!)
Stay tuned...I will let you know how the book turns out!