I couldn't wait for 2010 to be over with, as it was such a disappointing year in so many ways...I was hoping 2011 would be a fresh start and much better! I couldn't have been more wrong! 2011 has proved a shakey start to say the least, on so many DIFFERENT levels! Yesterday for the first time, I finally realized something that has been in front of my face for MONTHS! I learned a very hard, yet disappointing lesson. But, it was as if a weight was lifted off my shoulders!
So, I ran across this poem today and it literally brought me to tears...I'm no longer going to dwell on people who continually bring my spirits down by their own selfish choices. People who think it's OK to write horrible things about you to someone else, behind your back (and people that support that)!!! These people think they are 'victims' and have it so bad...trust me, you don't...wait until you have a parent, sibling, aunt, who are fighting for their lives...ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!
“One night, I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky. In each scene, I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was only one. This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow, or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord, ‘You promised me Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has been only one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?’ The Lord replied, ‘The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.’”
This poem is a needed reminder to me that I am not alone, I have family and real friends who are there for me at the drop of a hat...and that God will never leave my side as I navigate my way through this terrifying journey.