Halloween, 10/31/09

This Halloween didn't turn out to be as fun as I had hoped! Rain and a sick lil' 4 yr old made it for a rough day! We even ran out of candy...YIKES! But, the rain held off just in the nick of time for the Sunset Run Parade and trick or treating...! I made a batch of home made beef stew and pumpkin mushroom soup, since we were having company over. I also made home made choc chip cookies and banana-pumpkin bread...had a ton of nice h'dorves...but, my Ashlee sported a 103 fever all day long. She was so upset that she couldn't go out trick or treating, it broke my heart, but with her high temps and bad cough, and throwing up...ugh, no way! We told her people came by to fill her Halloween basket for her, since she couldn't make it out, and that made for a happy girl!!! We'll take her to the docs tomorrow...she just had the flu shot last friday, so I'm very afraid it's swine....stay tuned!


Here's my super hero, Haylee... Mo, Ash, mom and dad

Haylee and daddy

some of the kids from the parade

Pop-Pop and Haylee

Even daddy dressed up...the Crow

And my little sickie...poor thing never moved from bed all day, that is how bad she felt!

Lovin' from the Oven...

Today Jim and the girls made some home made choc chip cookies...YUM...

Mixin' it all up...
add the choc chips daddy...

wait for it...wait for it... ready for the eatin'

girls are happy with the results

Pumpkin Carvin' Time

Today was a rainy day...Jim took the kids out for some fun...while they were out, they thought of lonely ole' me, home alone and made my day by bringing me home some fresh flowers...thx guys!

Later they carved some pumpkins, and had a blast!!

Here's my wonderful family!!

Booo-Fluuu

Welcome to my Swine Flu Chronicles...

Yes, I've been hit with the H1N1 flu. It came fast and it came furious. You get every symptom you can think of, all rolled into one big flu. I must say, the only thing I didn't get was stuffy/runny nose. I did get the high fever, chills, body aches, head aches, bad congestion, strep, dbl ear infection, and NO voice. So, 2 trips to the docs, 2 diff prescribed meds, and lot's of rest. It truly took 48 hrs before I felt even the slightest bit of relief. We took precautions and wore masks when in my room. Jim and my parents took great care of me. The girls wrote me love letters every day. I pretty much lived on soft foods like soup and pudding and yogurt...but today, today I enjoyed a 1/4 sliver of an Italian hoagie...it was fantastic!!!

Here's sickie, in bed w/ mask (which I only wear when someone is in my room)...tons of mags to read, lots of TV time, and a tray of fluids and meds next to me. Jim gave me the 'ok' to do some online shopping...well alrightie then. Here's my hero...he's been a solo dad for the past 4 days doing it all (w. the help of my parents)...he's just he best!!!!

Man do I miss hugging these girls!!!!!

Today is a rainy, miserable day...I am stuck at home...and thx to ME, my girls cannot go to their fav cousin's bd in Lancaster, so to help turn that frown upside down, Jim took them on a fun excursion...the toy store, bowling, making cookies and movies. I'm more sad that I'm missing Rick's funeral today...I may not be there physically, but I'm there mentally...my thoughts are with him/his son's today (not so much his immediate family, they are questionable if that!)

Reflecting...

There's nothing worse than losing a close friend very unexpectedly, very tragically! You have an array of thoughts and feelings; shock, saddness, anger, denial...but I think Saddness is one that I reflect on the most! To be at such a state of mind, in such a dark place, to have no other choices but to take your life...that, is SAD!

Then of course there's my own guilt feelings...he reached out all the time...and most recently, I did not answer the phone...I got his vm and I texted him back...nice, huh! I couldn't take the time to CALL him, even though he sounded so depressed and sad...probably the EXACT reason I didn't want to call him back, truth be known....I had talked to him so many times prior, and the convos are very down and depressing, that I truly didn't WANT to deal with it...and for that I'm guilty and I'm sorry...not that I could have saved him, but we'll never know. He obviously felt more alone than ever to take this very low road!

What kills me is all those people who now come out of the wood work...all caring, now that he is gone. Esp a few in particular, who act now like they were always there for him, when in fact, he told me himself, they never were. Why couldn't they showed they cared about him when he was HERE ON EARTH!?!

Well, what's done is done. I'm accepting his fate, his decision, and I'm dealing with it. I learned a valuable lesson...take more time for those in need! Rest in peace, RA!!! You will be missed!

Fancy Schmancy

I awoke with a HEAVY heart (more in next blog)...so a quick fix, my one and only cure all...CHRISTMAS music and pancakes!!! Makes my heart feel better...


CHEERS!!!! Ash an Haylee enjoy some OJ in style! Pancakes and Xmas music on the agenda for this glooomy Sunday morn!

E.A.G.L.E.S!!!!

When the chips are down....there's nothing like friends to boost you back up...'nuff said!!!

Sugar, Sugar

Ash enjoys her powdered donut....

Ryleigh's 5th Birthday Party!

Gone w/ the wind....

It felt like a SUPER long week...and talk about a WINDY day...we gathered up some friends and kids and enjoyed some grub, wine and much needed girl time catching up...thx Tina and Karen for making time to stop over!!!